Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Another reminder of God's awesomeness!

Today I was again reminded of how awesome our God is!
I had to take my daughter Kendra to the cardiologist in Portland for an echo cardiogram. Last week at her sport physical they detected a murmur in her heart and wanted to be sure that it wasn't anything to be concerned about. It was a great day for us, the sun was out so the driving was nice, but more importantly, we had time to chat, really chat! We don't have that opportunity very often without 4 guys that we both love dearly being around to either overhear us or offer their own opinions, LOL! So that time in the car was a huge blessing to me! But what really was amazing to me, was that I was able to sit in the room with her while they were doing the sonogram and I could see her heart beating and providing life to her body and I was simply awe struck at all of the details of this part of God's creation. If you have never had the opportunity to see this, you are really missing out on something truly miraculous! The things we just take for granted, like this, your heart continuing to function one beat at a time to keep us going in our day to day! What an awesome God I serve!!!
At one point during the sonogram, they did an audio of her heart beating and I was quickly brought back to the day 15 years ago that I first fell in love with her and that sound! Tears filled my eyes at the thought of the gift she is to my life and many others.
God is good and He is awesome and we must remember to thank Him for all the "everyday" things in our lives. We don't deserve any of it, its all a gift of grace and love!

Saturday, November 15, 2008

In the search of....

These past couple of weeks, I have been in a blah, a fog, if you will. Nothing bad, per se, just the same things day in and day out that the rest of you I am sure deal with as well. The same family, time, seasonal and everyday issues everyone faces, but for some reason it seems to have gotten the best of me. The last couple of days, I have really been searching. Mostly inside myself, since I know that feelings like this, at least with me, usually start there. My kids are all doing well and are healthy, Frank is working hard and classes are going well for him. My "job" at the church is going really well, I feel. What can it be? So, I am in search of happiness. Sounds like a cliche, right? Not necessarly so in my case. I am truly a happy person for all intents and purposes and I seem to have lost it, so I am looking for it! I know that I need to be looking to the One who created me inside and out and let Him show me where my happiness and wholeness comes from and I am trying, really I am. Just while I am on this part of the journey, I am still looking for my true happiness and am impatiently waiting for it to return.
In my devotions today (not a coincident, I know):
"The strngth and happiness of a man consists in finding out the way in which God is going and going in that way too." ~ Henry Ward Beecher

Saturday, November 1, 2008


Anyone who knows me well knows how incredibly random that I am :) I have a major case of "oh it's shiny", meaning I can be in the middle of a sentence or a thought and something else will catch my attention and I am off in a whole other conversation about that or an exclamation about what I just saw, leaving the one that I am with and talking too with this look on their face of pure confusion. This is usually my dear sweet hubby, who now after almost 15 years of marriage, just smiles and shakes his head and continues to love me in spite of myself! Most days I beat myself up over this quality as I really don't find it good for much. However today, God reminded me that I am fearfully and wonderfully made! In my devotions today, I was reading in Psalm 139:14 and it reminded me that God created me just the way I am for a purpose. God didn't just throw a recipe together and hope it came out alright... He put thought and purpose into me and that includes ALL of me, even my randomness! Also, during this devotion time, I realized that at times my randomness has a specific purpose. This past week, I have been under attack from so many angles that I lost count. And yesterday, I was beat down and my spirit was tired. However, because I really don't have the ability to dwell very long on anything specific because I am so random, I was able to use that to accomplish a large event for our church and I had a lot of fun doing it!
God is good and He thought so much of me to put specific thought and time into making me, including all my idiosyncrasies, like my randomness! Thank you Lord, for making me who I am, but please continue to work on me to make me more like YOU!